Lose 30 pounds

I am so excited! I have lost 10 lbs and only have 20 left. I know I can do it. I am eating really good and exercising everyday. It feels so good. One thing I learned is I can’t talk about it with people who aren’t helping me and supporting me. I can talk to my sister, mom, and one friend. My other friends jsut discourage me. I have to do this on my own. Now I am at school, college and I know it will get hard. I just cannot give in. I have to keep going and know that I will get there. My new goal is for my friends to notice on their own. Last year, I tried over and over to lose weight, so if I tell them I’m trying again, they’ll just think I’ll fail again and then I might give in to that too. I am on my own. I cannot wait until the day they notice! One of my friends suggested losing 5lbs a semester. I changed the topic. I am losing 20 by 2009, which is the end of the semester. Then we’ll see where I am. I think I should be satisfied. I will be happy after I lose all my 30. I am deciding right now. I am choosing to be happy everyday, because I am thinner than the day before. I am stopping the hating myself. Yes, I know I have further to go, but I am farther than I was a month ago. So my new goals are:

153 by oct. 1
148 by nov. 1
142 by dec. 1
138 by jan. 1

I can’t wait! All I have to do is keep going, and time will take care of itself and I will arrive at my goal of 138!

june 26 1 pm: I woke up-150.

Today was good and bad. My friend bought chips ahoy cookies and I ate three and I ate a candy bar and a bunch of other food. however…I did run 12 MILES.

yesterday, I didnot run, and I went to applebees and ate frenchfries and chips and queso. not so good.

all in all, I’ve lost about 6 pounds. and I think tomorrow I’ll get back on track.

152. i lost five punds in the past two weeks. not too bad. :D I ate two cookies today but then I ran 6 miles at midnight and all else i ate was a taco and chips and salsa and apples. so not too bad. i can begin to see my arm muscles! I knew I had them but they’ve been covered by fat before. I also did 100 situps and 35 pushups. im proud of myself

I think I actually pretty weel today. I had grilled chicken for lunch but with chips and salsa and bread. bad. However I ran 9 miles. So I think it evened out. I need to get my eating under control. going to the beach tomorrow. should help I don’t usually eat much there (I’m half naked, not exactly hungry) But I’m going to stop eating so much bread. I overeat on it, so i’m only having 2 a day or less.

I woke up at 12, i know late. but i felt good. i was about 153, thats pretty good for me lately. so i start out good. i have grapes for breakfast, but then i have a salad. i basically keep eating and am 157 by 6 p.m. tell myslef ill quit. then after two pasta dishes, a popcorn bag, cereal, and more fruit, i do quit. i ran 6 miles which was good. no crunches. i got locked out and was tired. i decided not to lie to myself anymore, really just to listen to myself. if I say I’ll stop then I need to stop. I even told my sister, I was like I’m not eating for the rest of the nite then of course I did. And she called me a hypocrite, that’s my least favorite thing ever, so I am not going to be one.

i ran three miles at 9:45 tonite. when i got home i streched and did probly 40 pushups and 200 crunches.

I’m 5’5 and starting at 157ish. i want to get down to 127 by college this fall.