live for myself

Well so far I haven’t been doing very well with this goal. In fact I have more or less ignored it, at least when it comes to big things and I’ve just used it as an excuse for the little things which wasn’t the idea at all. At this point though I really think it’s having a negative affect on me and if I don’t start making some drastic changes I might end up doing something I’ll really regret. So I’m going to start by re-ordering my 43 things into the order of what I consider most important for me at this point.

I’m already feeling guilty and selfish for even suggesting it. But I want to, I think I need to. I’m young, unattached and full of life, if I don’t do it now when will I? Am I just going to let people walk over me for the rest of my life? Can I truly be happy without doing this, at least a little?