have no regrets

“One can never change the past, only the hold it has on you, and while nothing in your life is reversible, you can reverse it nevertheless.”

-Merle Shain

I worked at the sack race station… so an adult came up wanting a prize and my co-worker/volunteer friend said, “You can have a prize if you race.” This lead to them establishing a race with adults. I wanted to say, “But I don’t want to sweat, or bounce, or jump.” Instead, I took off my flip flops, pulled up the sack and hopped until I crossed the finish line. I wasn’t first, but I had a lot of fun. I’m glad I didn’t cheat myself out of being like a child, being in the moment is the best place to be. A short while later, we were all hula hooping. The smiles (mostly from the adults who hadn’t picked one up in a long time) were priceless!

I’ve been here before! He isn’t where I am and feels we should slow down. Slow down after I started investing my heart into an idea… even though I knew he had some healing to do. Why did I proceed on against my better judgment? Why do I feel funky about this when deep down inside I did know? Why is he being so nice and talking this through when I’m being sarcastic and mean? Why am I even speaking to him when I know it would be better to be quiet, be still and let my thoughts settle and emotions rebalance. Hmmm…

I told him that I’ll be okay… because that’s true. I allowed myself to believe that something good, lasting could come out of this. That is also true. I’ve learned more about myself and choosing wisely. It’s better to trust my innermost feelings instead of running with an idea that I know is not the best for me~

further away from the safety of shallow water when dealing with matters of the heart in my relationship~