Write the truth.

i am in my basement, where the only working computer is located that is connected to the internet. the shift key on one side is broken so i am typing all lc.

the only television i own that is working properly is up two flights of stairs in my bedroom (my daughter was here last night pushing buttons on the remote for the tv in the living room – i still don’t know why it doesn’t work now).

recently a friend asked “do you diet by just not eating?” the answer would probably be yes – except it’s not a diet, per se. i just heated up some jasmine rice. but i am out of milk and cream and most real food but i worked basically the last two days with little interruption so . . . so what? i suppose it’s like asking “do you just exercise by running up and down the stairs 28 times a day, walking blocks to classes, and carrying heavy satchels of books?” Why, yes! Isn’t that what Jack LaLanne recommends? see, i can be a bit sarcastic when i’m not feeling well.

if i have a fever, and a sore throat, drippy sinuses, raging headache, and no real desire to eat, does that mean i’m sick?

what do you think goes best with jasmine rice – steamed asparagas or re-crisped bacon?

i have so much work to do and i feel “not well” and think it is just possible that i won’t be able to do this after all.

these are most of the true things i can think of at the moment. there is one more.

what’s right. Right?

Such as “good” people don’t lie, steal, or hit. Of course, they do. Just ask Elie Weisel. Or most of us, at one time or another. I can’t even say that to lie, steal, or hit is a “bad” thing to do. Sometimes it is the only thing to do to protect your children or a friend or yourself. I tend to think that Judas thought he was doing the “right” thing at the time. A lot of us are doing the “right” thing even though others might say that’s not true. Truth is relative. Right?

Okay, so I decided to delete the last entry. Because it really is nothing and if it is nothing then it’s not true at all! Well, it’s an event that is going to happen but the implication is much more than it is and for now, I’d like to keep it to myself. When I know that it really really really is nothing – then I’ll write the true “It is nothing.”
Deal?
Deal.

So I just did – write the truth when I wrote on someone else’s thing – I’m not really sure how this whole dialogue works yet. But it is amazing how you make connections with other people – everywhere. I think I like it.
The thing about the truth is once you think it and then you say it outloud and then you write it, like a permanent record, it becomes less deniable. You only have one choice then. To live true. I think I really like it.