meet a man who is like him, because he's the most perfect man for me, and i can't have him.

I met a guy. He’s wonderful. He is eloquent with his words, he cooks and cooks all the foods i love, he’s intelligent, kind, witty, musical, artistic, charming, humorous, has a spiritual way about him and it shows through his beautiful face. I adore him. We used to talk every day, for hours, about life and how nice it would be to be together. But then we’re far apart, and my life has entanglements. He wasn’t interested in a relationship, so he said, but when i told him it would take some time for me to get my life in order, he seemed impatient. I couldn’t figure that out because if he didn’t want a relationship, what would it matter? But we still talked every day for a long while, ......until he got a girlfriend. Then, we’d talk whenever he had time. When he split with her, again we’d talk about life and trivial things. I enjoy any moment he shares with me. Anyway, now he’s with a new girlfriend. I guess she doesn’t give him a free moment, or she’s jealous, or whatnot. What would it matter if he talked with me, if he is only dedicated to her now? If he has no interest in me, should it matter that we speak as friends? even if i have feelings for him that i respectfully hide?
I truly would like to meet someone who interests me as much as he does…someone who overtakes my mind like him. I try to not think about him, but every day, he’s the first thing on my mind. I’m reminded of him as i go through my day. He’s sometimes in my dreams.
I know it’s twisted, but, I wish to find someone like him, not only to be happy, but so seeing i’m with someone else, he’ll feel free to talk with me again.
I’m doomed.