Get over my fear of spiders

Well, sort of. I saw a baby spider today and decided to hold him for a while. I don’t seem to mind little spiders too much. I actually thought he was kind of cute, small and nothing like the giant hairy ones that hide under the bed! Maybe replacing my fear with compassion would help, if not supercede the phobia.

Ok, so I came across a spider yesterday while cleaning the house. It wasn’t gigantic by any means, but it wasn’t small enough for my comfort either. I ended up having to get my dad to catch him in a plastic cup, but I did hold the cup for a moment. In the end, I suppose my desire to face this lifelong phobia of mine overcame my irrational fear. I don’t really know why I’m afraid of them. Funnily enough, I feel mild discomfort at looking at other creepy crawlies but nothing like the panic I feel when I see a spider. I really want to try and get over this. This fear is probably more subconscious than anything. Exposure to them and maybe some understanding of how they walk (that’s what creeps me out the most) and what makes them tick will help me feel less afraid of them.

where have all the spiders gone? It’s winter where I live, so I expect the cold must have killed many of them by now. This goal is probably going to have to wait until spring rolls around. Phew!

I want to get over my fear of spiders so desperately. I’m the only one in my household who will go into hysterics if there’s a spider even in the next room. But how do you even begin to work on a fear that’s ingrained into you?! I don’t find the idea of spiders frightening. Over here, there relatively small and aren’t poisonous or bite. But it’s just the way they move that creeps me out. >.<