drive more

I took driving lessons, got my license, but I am not confident with my driving skills, why? Because of the fucking instructor I had, always telling me, in a subtle way, that I will surely crash and kill someone. So, that 15 infernal lessons are constantly in my head when I´m driving, that horrible voice and attitude, so pedagogic!! He was a terrible teacher. It´s sad, I used to drive when I was a in semi legal situation, and I was not scared, and now this… even though I never did a single scratch to the car. Whenever my dad or sister or mom tell me to drive, I always say “you drive”.
Yesterday I drove a little, of course, no accidents, nothing wrong, but those words and his oh so lovely tender gentle voice keep popping up. I should drive more often as a private revenge to him, sort of like thinking “you thought I would fail and wouldn´t get my license, and crash the car and hurt someone, and just watch me, driving perfectly!!!”