I was doing really well and then I went to my Dad’s. I forgot to bring some of my stuff so I didn’t do it. v_v Ah well, I’ll finish it tomorrow.
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I procrastinate when I feel inadequate, depressed, bored, tired and hungry.
I procrastinate when I feel inadequate because I decide “I’m so bad what’s the point”, I may as well not even try.
I procrastinate when I feel depressed because I hope that will drive it away. This does seem to work.
I procrastinate when I’m bored because I feel I am bored and so homework wouldn’t help.
When I am tired I only want to sleep and relax rather than do homework.
I procrastinate when I am hungry because I just want to push it off.
I suppose most of my procrastination comes from desperation. I suck so hard what’s the point of trying? It won’t make a difference. I suppose my want to procrastinate comes from depression. This could be an appropriate response.
Why am I depressed though? I suppose I constantly feel inadequate. The root answer to my procrastination is to stop feeling inadequate.
Inadequacy
Feelings: Fat, ugly, disgusting, unlikeable, impotent.
Cause: I feel fat and ugly when I wear baggy clothes (most of my stuff). I feel disgusting when I don’t take care of myself. I feel unlikeable when I see other people who appear to have more friends than me. I feel impotent when I procrastinate.
Responses: I tend to respond by procrastination. There does not appear to be much I can do about clothes. My Mom won’t wash my clothes more often. This makes me feel angry. I could work on my people skills. If I do work I feel better about being impotent.
Didn’t get anything done yesterday, too depressed. I plan to find out the root causes of my procrastination. I’ll write about my findings later.
I want to get to a point where I finish all my school assignment and the meat of my studying at least a full day before the test or due date.
Here’s How I’m Doing so Far:
Urgent Tests:
Biology
Social Studies
German
Wednsday Test:
Literary Elements
Urgent Homework:
German Homework
Tuesday Homework:
Math
Read Chapter 6 of my computer book.
I plan to finish my urgent and Tuesday homework today. I will study a bit more for my German though I am pretty well prepared. Unfortunately, due to lack of study materials I will have to do some of my studying for my Biology test tomorrow and all of my social studies studying.
For those who cringed upon reading that last paragraph (like anyone’s reading this, rolls eyes ) I do this all the time. I still score high marks, I’m just sick of the stress.
I may highlight my English studying material (I know a lot of people say highlighting is just another form of procrastinating but I know from firsthand experience that it is a lifesaver for me.
