Learn to live in the present, not the past & not the future.

I’m not sure if this is an accomplishable goal, only because i feel this a moment-to-moment task. I have been able to accomplish this, for the most part, but there have been times when I have to remind myself to get back to right here, right now.

Oh, I’m living in the present today! (please see entry under my #1 goal – my ex)

So I’ve done things in my past that I regret. We all have, right? So why do I punish myself so much for it? (pretty much constantly) I never killed anybody or robbed a bank or any cardinal sin like that, so why do I do this to myself? Okay, so if I’m not doing that, I’m feeling the pressure of time. I’ve wasted the past four years in an abusive relationship (finally he put a gun to my head so I could put him in prison). I’m 27, now & I just can’t stop projecting. I want to finish my batch in nursing, feel more secure & less vulnerable, travel, fall in love with someone who respects himself & me, have a family-not just have kids, travel more, learn more, help others more, & just do so much more! My parents grow flowers for a living & I do the seeding & some watering, so I literally am always stopping “to smell the roses”, but I’m thinking that I’m not living my life in the present – even right now, this very second – am I really living my life? “They” say time is your best friend, so why do I feel like I’m running out of it? Why is it my enemy?