decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life

I think that mid 2009 is going to be a turning point for me one way or another. For now I’m just not motivated to make a change – instead I’m just being open to what comes my way without a lot of digging.

Well, work is actually going quiet well right now (they like me and are paying me 10% more than last year – yeah!) However, I still don’t have much of a clue about what realistically I could do successfully and happily in the long run. I’ve decided to just ride the positive wave at work for a while longer and not think about this much. If it ain’t broke and all…

Nothing in mind, but I have asked more people for help with this and have spent time thinking about various things I might like to do. I realize now that this doesn’t have to mean just a job choice, and that helps. When thinking about jobs I have thought about the health care research field and health care related things quite a bit though, so maybe I will investigate stuff more there.

She just helped me see the importance again. For a while various friends have suggested that “maybe I need a new hobby” when I’ve talked about various feelings of ambivalence about my life. I’ve always found this frustrating and a bit confusing because one of my sources of stress is too many unfinished projects.

We talked about this for a while and she clarified that what she really meant was that I needed something to be passionate about: something to give life meaning, even if it’s not through work. Knowing that my friends were picking up on this and that the need must be somewhat visible spoke to me.

She told me that she works on this in terms of Values->Goals->Actions. I have been thinking a lot about high-level goals mapping to actions but have not taken the step back to work out what values I want to use as foundation of this “thing” to do.

Most people would say that I’ve got it pretty much together… um yeah, that’s the outside not the inside. I’ve got a friend who is doing great at this now and she has really inspired me to make figuring out what makes me happy a priority, so now it’s a goal. I’ve got to do it – I just have no idea how!