decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life

And I mean leaving for good, not for the day. I guess I really need to get to work on this goal. Work is just really difficult right now and I’m not loving (or even liking) it at all. I’ve got to find out what other jobs someone with my background could be good for, just not sure how to start on that.

Went to a few talks and did some reading. I guess I really need to figure out what my core “values” are but I honestly have no idea right now (well, some idea but not a ton.)

For weeks now I have had nothing really to post except about my weight loss goal (which still isn’t done, but I’m working on it.) Ugh. Time to take some action.

I figured that this was a good a goal as any to put it under. I am really bummed that while I have been totally busy as I look over my list of active goals I don’t seem to have done anything toward any of them. Either I have goals that don’t meet my life or maybe they are too vague or maybe I am just spending time on the wrong stuff… whatever it is it’s a bit of a bummer. Something to think of though.

1) Classic (old) movies.
2) Fitness for all.

How I make either one of those into a job I have no idea, but I’m writing them down!

With a friend who I have seen make amazing changes in her life. She is SO much happier at work than I have ever seen before. A while ago, she targeted what she wanted to do and she just did it! In case anyone is wondering if this is worth it or not… I would say that it is. Now, to just get myself to do it!

I realize that I have nothing to write about for any of my goals this week so I will write about this… no progress here but at least it is on my mind. I realize that even though I don’t know what I want to do, that I am holding myself back a bit because I don’t know how to go about changing my life once I do figure it out. How do you make that shift to a different work schedule, less money, and tell the spouse? Something for me to ponder…

I have a couple of friends who are dealing a lot with work issues and talking to them has made me feel quite happy about my own situation, but also has made me realize that maybe I need to think more about what I really want instead of just letting the years pass by. I send them vitual hugs tonight.

Sick this week, sick all week. I just can’t think about this or any other goal so I’ve logged in just to cheer others. If you’re reading this… cheer to you!

I think that mid 2009 is going to be a turning point for me one way or another. For now I’m just not motivated to make a change – instead I’m just being open to what comes my way without a lot of digging.