be brave

I think I’ve been brave. Some days are harder than others and the man I’m married to has been completly ignoring me… His stories are full of lies and it’s really hurting me. I’m doing my best to move on and be brave when faced with all this, but some days I just feel like laying down and just dying so I never have to get up and face the world.

At work they found out he was gone and it was very hard. I handled it well, but I could have done better. I feel very much alone right now…. I wish I could be brave all the time.

My husband left last weekend to go to school in Sweden. It was a good opertunity for him and we thought it was for the best, all things considered… He promised to call and e-mail me every day but I havn’t heard from him since Tuesday. I’ve completly fallen apart… It’s so hard to keep things up and believe that things will get better… I don’t really think I can right now. My friends tell me to be brave…. I hope I can be someday…