be less selfish

I’ve really been working on this. My STBX’s mom lives two houses down and tends to pop over way to frequently. She’s old and getting a bit bonkers (a very negative person with no friends -very sad) I try to remember how lonely and pitiful she is. It’s hard when she is a large factor in the falling apart of my marriage and STBX’s mental breakdown. Note that she lives near me, he moved farther away so she can’t just walk on over to his house constantly. Anyway to the working on it part -I’ve taken her out driving & to eat a couple times and not hidden away upstairs when she comes by as much (lucky for me she isn’t able to climb stairs so it’s my safe zone) Also, planning a weekend away with the kids and a couple of thier friends. Kayaking, camping, games and such. You wonder what this has to do with being less selfish -Well, I’d rather stay home until I can finish getting my spring/summer planting done. Balance is such a difficult thing.

I’m most selfish of my time. I want to give more of my time to my children, to those less fortunate, and others that need my help (especially when I just don’t feel like giving it)