die content

Part of the goal to “die content” is also to to live content.
Ready to die and any moment.
I think I’m there.

I am not perfect and my life is certainly not perfect but it is a good life.

I hope to do so much while I’m here in this world -hopefully positively impacting others and bringing glory to my maker, but you know I really am ready if I should die. I would like to stick around long enough to know my children are settled & of course that is a cycle because I’d like to make sure any grandkids are situated and so on and so on.

I feel a sense of peace knowing that God can manage here on earth without me (duh) Funny -It has not always been the case. (My self-importance issues, not God actually not being able to handle things without me) It is hard to let go and give up control-as if we ever really had control in the first place. Life is truly more rewarding without the self imposed pressure. It is a balance between letting the currents take you where they will and paddling where you want to go. Well, that’s it for now -just a bit of a ramble on my mortality.

It was hard to decide exactly what the right word should be. Content, Satisfied, Fulfilled, Completed, Ready, Happy. Content seemed the closest to what I want. It means to me that when I go I have a feeling that my work here is done. My life has meant something. My purpose (purposes) fulfilled. Happy seems too circomstantial, too superficial, but it is a part of my contentment. Anyway hopefully I won’t have this goal “done” for a very long time. (But if I die tomorrow I do think I will have accomplished this goal)