So i had to go to bunnings to buy some things for my dog. I was really worried/anxious about it and made a big deal out of nothing because everything was just fine. I have to learn to stop projecting what i think is going to happen, into every social situation. went to a party about 2-3 weeks ago. it was a friends 18th i decided that i was going but then the night before i had a huge argument with someone (long long story) and i didn’t feel like it anymore. Then i decided that I was going because I wanted to see my friends whom i hadn’t seen in almost a year. I got into contact with one of my besties who happens to live near me and was going. and she drove me. I ended up having so much fun that I didn’t want to leave but i had to because my friend was driving and she was tired. It was probably good that I left a little early before everyone started to get drunk. It was great fun and reminded me that my old friends do really love me and want to hang out.
A new girl came about 3 weeks ago to school. We started talking immediately (pretty much) and she has helped me get into contact with other people in my class, its not that I don’t want to talk to people its more that I don’t know how to start a conversation with someone who maybe isn’t really looking for someone to talk to. Also i have been talking to another woman from the other chem class (they used to be one but they got split into two), i dropped my bag in a hard to reach place and she helped me get it which kind of broke the ice, then we started saying hi to whenever we ran into each other and then one day we were walking to the car park together and striked up a conversation and then yesterday she came into my class to ask if i wanted to be her partner for the joint class prac! made me feel so good!!!
I have realized that I just need to break the ice with people and then i am fine. Its the not knowing if they want to talk to me that makes me anxious. also asking questions of people in stores and things/doing something that I have never done.
I have been helping a woman in my physics class for a few weeks now. Because English is her second language she doesn’t get everything the first time around and she sometimes needs help understanding the concepts. Today she asked what my name was obviously i told her and then asked what hers was. She is from Iran, I dont really want to write her name. we talked after the lesson about why we were each going to the senior college.
I find it difficult understanding people with strong accents (sometimes even other australians) especially if i am not looking or concentrating on them directly.. So it was extra difficult for me to understand her.
but i tried my best.
Haven’t really had any anxiety at school so far, (at least not social anxiety) but i have been a bit anxious about other things.
Enrolled for face to face school. Exciting and scary, This time not as many people know each other as the last school I went too so there shouldn’t be the ‘no friends, new school’ situation. so it should be easier to adjust. but focusing on my studies is my number 1 priority.
I went back to my old school because my best friend had her final year project speech on and I said that I would go and I felt as though i had too even though i really didn’t want to. It was kinda horrible i have so many bad memories from that place luckily 99% of the people that bullied me had left the school and I didn’t have to talk to anyone either which was good. but it also makes me kinda sad that I am not still friends with some of the other people there because they look like genuinly nice people.
It was a bit nerve racking going down to my exams but it was pretty much all alright, except i am fairly sure that some people were talking about me behind my back, i just ignored them. After all my exams was done,
i went to a kings of leon concert which was AMAZING i must admit concerts are the one place i don’t feel socially anxious. because people don’t seem to judge you there, god i just love them. plus kings of leon were amazing, woops ive already said that ahahahahah
I went to the wedding of a family friend, it was a fairly low-key event (she had it at her house, with lots of family and friends) of course this ‘community’ of people all already knew each other but I didn’t and so I was extremelly nervous and stressed the whole time but I went anyway because I am fairly close to the the person who got married.
On the same day my bestfriend was throwing a party, and he really wanted me to go it wasn’t the worst situation I knew pretty much everyone there but I hadn’t seen them since I left that school so I didn’t know if these people had changed or not but it was good to catch up. and it all ended up being ok.
A friend invited me out to dinner, I hadn’t seen the other friends we were going with for ages so I said yes, I had nothing better to do. I feel allot better about going out in those situations but I still want to be able to go to parties with people that I don’t know. its a work in progress.
went to a family friends engagement party last night, a bonfire at her house at first I was really nervous but allot of people left early and the ones that were left were a bit tipsy and it ended up being quite a funny night. I even drove through the drive through to get my brother a cheeseburger afterwards, I was so scared cause I’d neved done it before.
So i did my second practical day and got to know the people better! I even offered one a lift home. we then went to the information evening for Air force cadets, where I had a bit of an anxiety attack in the car when we couldn’t find the right building (it was in army barracks) and mum had to go ask some army cadet where the airforce cadets where :/ I went to the information evening and I was probably the oldest recruit there SOOOO unbelievably embarrasing. but I think i am going to join anyway