Find a job that fits me and the life I want to live

I am marking this off for now becuase my job has changed considerably in the last year or so. I am enjoying it more and a lot of negative people have left and the atmosphere has changed. I have been offerd a position for the next couple of months to help with a special project that I am excited about. It will help streamline a program we use. It has a more flexible schedule and I can work on my own. I am incredibly grateful for this chance. I am thankful to have the job that I do have. It has allowed me to learn a lot of new things and it has let me afford to do many things I want to do such as travel. I have seen myself working more as a freelancer of some sort with the ability to work from anywhere in the world and who knows I still may get that job in the future but for right now I am with the job that fits my lifestyle right now.

I am still looking for what my dream job will be. I have made the goal of joining the peace corp in 3 years. In the meantime it has been a little over a year since I stepped down and two months ago we had some personnel changes and the environment has become a little bit more relaxed. Since working on my goal of stopping complaining things are getting better as well. It is a secure job that I am very appreciative of and working on doing it to the best of my ability while I look for the one of my dreams.

I am continuing to research. I am reading a great book called making a living without a job. I am really enjoying it. I still have to read the 4 hour work week as well.

I applied for a part time position in another dept.It will give me time away from my current monotony and could lead to a full time position why I still look for my dream job.

Update: I did not get the position which was probably a good thing because they announced they were opening up a new office halfway across the country and the department would be going there. People either had to relocate or find a different job.

I took a look at The Art institute of Portland today. Graphic design certianly looks interesting. I asked about working from home and they said it was about 50/50 but most people eventually go to work for companies for the benefits. It looks like a really intense program so I don’t think I would want to work a full time job while going to school.

Today I saw an article on how to make money blogging. I am also going to take a class on word press. Even if I don’t do this as a full time job I think I will blog eventually.

I also have an appointment next week for a tour of the Art Institute of Portland. I am going to talk to the admissions person about the graphic design program.

Tomorrow is my last day in my current position. Although I will still probably work some extra hours to complete my emergency fund I will have more free time and energy to devote to my search. I really do think stepping down was a good thing to do and I can’t wait to be able to get back into this.

No one has talked to me about what will be happening when I step down. I really don’t even know when it will be because they are still interviewing for my position. I keep thinking about things I will miss but then I run into things that I really will not miss. I am working as many hours of overtime as I can to get as much as possible from my current rate. I am trying to work on my goals as well but I really cannot concentrate on anything while I am working so much. That is why I have been kind of at a stand still.

I keep thinking I can still do my current job, that it is not so bad. Then friends straigten me out. This is just a good day and they are not all like this.

The good thing about this is now I am enjoying my current job. I feel like I have more freedom to do the best job I can do. I want to go out on a high note. I also see things that annoy me about my current job and I am happy that there is an end in sight to them.

I am not sure how long I will stay in my current position but I am going to make the most of it. I am trying to do the best that I can but also I am working as much overtime as my current rate to put a nice chunk of change in my savings account.

One last thing is now I am not so afraid to go and get my dream job. I was tied to my current job because of the security. I am slowly realizing that I will be ok. I will have enough and I can be really really happy going after what I want.

I knew changes were coming when my company got bought out. I along with another person in my position were asked to step down or maybe it was time to leave the company. I at least had the option to stay in my current position. I talked to m y boss today and told her that I decided to stay in my current position. Even though I was not entirely sure. As soon as I left the meeting I had a feelling of dread. I know that if I messed up even a little bit that I would be gone. So tomorrow I am going to talk to her and let her know that after thinking on our conversation that I will step down. Although this will be lower pay I think I will be much happier and I will not be in such fear of losing my job. I am still looking for what will be a perfect fit for me but I know stepping down in my current employer is the right move. It just took me longer than expected to realize it. I am trying to get over the feeling of failure. I just have to accept my limitations and move on.