weigh 130 pounds

I keep stuffing this up on school days, because there is just so much crap to eat and people to eat it with. Identify the obstacle, check. I would usually drink a lot of tea and coffee at work or home, or protein shakes between meals… but they’re too expensive to buy all the time at uni, and water just doesn’t cut it for a distraction. I might try taking pre-made green and chamomile teas and see if it gives me some variety and distraction. Consider alternate solutions, apply, – will get back to you.

Still 140 lbs… goal is to be 136 in two weeks. Would be happy with 138 if the full 4 pounds is too hard. :)

I am reminded time and time again that there is no proper way of losing weight, that doesn’t involve a combination of good diet and frequent exercise. I had a couple attempts at failed diet last year, but I’m finally getting the message that there must be physical elements to real progress. Since taking up swimming in December, I lost 5cm from my waist, 1.5cm from my arms, 4cm from my lower stomach and a couple other centimetres from around my body. It added up to 15cm off, but there was no actual numerical weight loss on the scales.

I added diet into that, and immediately am seeing the numbers froom the deficit of calories. I’ll have to keep following it for a few months to make sure I keep it off by maintaining good habits, but once again I’ve cracked the AMAZING ZOMG SECRET (not really) that weight loss is: exercise + diet, and one does not discount the other.

Weight today: 140 pounds.

This is such a hard goal! I just like food, and being lazy, it’s such a comfortable way of life, haha. I was 147 two weeks ago, yesterday I was 143 after a week of intensive dieting. I’ve been lap swimming between 2-3 times per week for about 6 weeks now,it started by going to the beach with the boyfriend a couple times a week. I’m building up to be able to do 1.4 KM by the end of March, at the moment I can do 1 KM comfortably in under 40mins. I started at about 600-650, but once I got into it, found I could build fairly easily and decided to set a conscious goal so that I do more laps, but my times get better. Sort of like any rigourous exercise, do more in less time. :P

I plan to re-format the diet in a couple of weeks, this is an intensive period just to kick the crap out of my diet and adjust to saying ‘NO’ again. What a shame summer’s almost gone, I’ve got a hard winter ahead. *grrr

Well, in two months of not going to the gym once, eating stupidly, and starting a high-dose of hormonal contraception… my new weight is 63.4kg – 139 lbs. I only gained 0.5 kg (1.3kg / 3lbs all together from lowest point) when I was expecting atleast 3-4kgs/8lbs : to me, I look like I’ve gained that much.

I’ve decided that in order to stay realistic, and move get past the seemingly never-ending-cycle of weight loss, I should set a final goal and once I reach it, be happy. I would be happy at 58kg/128 lbs, which would put my BMI around 19 – I wouldn’t want it any lower. I’m back at the gym as of tonight, also over the binges now the hormonal-compulsive-emotional eating is over, hopefully I’ll resume seeing results. I’m aiming for a pound a week in combined diet&exercise, end result being 11 pounds loss by the end of my gym contract at the end of August – which would roughly bring me to my 58kg/128 lb goal.

Hopefully in three months I can tick this off as done, or atleast be close enough to.

I decided to take some time off actively pursuing this, I started to look bony and unhealthy as opposed to fit and toned.

!>!
- My rib sticking out when I was standing normally

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- Ribs and Hip bones

I suppose everyone’s idea of what looks good is different, but to me the bones look wasn’t what I was aiming for. Need to get back to the gym and work on toning rather than number loss, me thinks.

17th:

I’ve been bad. My carb cravings have been insane the last two days. I will just maintain this week, I’ve needed so much to be full, and it has SUCKED.

Yesterday
- Good: intake of fruit&veg: banana, mandarin, 2 pears, grapes.
- Bad: Overdid the carbs, and covered them in saturated fat and sugar: Lamington, Hot chips w/tomato sauce, 5 slices of bread, and biscuits.

Today
- Good: Ordering my coffees with skim milk & using equal sweetener.
- Bad: Having a small pack of M&Ms. Getting cheese&mayonnaise on my 6” subway roast chicken. Going home tonight and having 4 pieces of toast with peanut butter and jam AND butter. dies

21st:

I was out all day yesterday, from my museli w/ low fat milk & banana breakfast onwards. I had subway roast chicken (with no sauce or cheese ), then an apple & banana, but caved & had KFC chips & gravy, and a small bag of M&Ms. I compromised by not drinking at all in the four hours I stayed at a social, therefore still averaging my maintenance level (2000).

Still working on setting better social guidelines, sigh.

Today:

Saturday, like Friday, was another full day of social commitments – ‘coffee&muffin discussion’ (skim milk, equal artificial sweetener) a 24th cocktail and platter celebration (skipped the alcohol & didn’t pick much at the fa-err I mean, food) followed by last minute free entry into Satoshi Tomiie – skipped everything on offer in the alcohol/substance spectrum and paid for it at 4am with two McDonald’s junior burgers (<500 cals, saturated fat though) & M&Ms.

Having a serious issue with the M&Ms. Never liked chocolate before now. Or wanted/desired it on a regular basis. I’m going to weigh in Wednesday, I think I’ve maintained but I could be unpleasantly mistaken. I’m mostly pleased with my choices over the last three days, I haven’t taken the easy options (though i am discovering a new weakness for M&Ms, to be outlined against later…) and feel pretty good physically & mentally for it. I’ve got a new structure for day to day life that’s based on having something to do every day, at almost every time. I’m hoping that being more disciplined with my time management will make it easier to cut down on having too many social commitments (often at the expense of education & sleep), and make following my eating & work out plans easier.

Plateauplateauplateau.

It sucks. :(

As a result of not being home Thu-Sun, I ate whatever was available wherever I was. Being quite sick Thursday&Friday, I lost the entire contents of my stomach a few times, and didn’t really do much in the way of exercise. I did start rectifying my diet today though, which makes my feel positive about my efforts in reaching this goal in a healthy way. I’ve also decided when I get to 130, I’m getting a new pair of jeans.

Hope everyone else’s Easter was pleasant! <3

I love this saying, it reminds me that being patient and using your brain to approach a situation has it’s rewards.

136.6 lbs :)