be quiet

I’m tired of talking. To be honest that’s really just it. I want to be a woman of few words.

My main problem with being quiet is that I kinda feel like an asshole whenever I do it. But I really want to be quiet. Not to seem mysterious or enigmatic or anything but just to feel like when I do speak it means something…

I’ve been pretty weird today. I talked alot with a friend at lunch, then I wouldn’t stop joking. Dear lord, I was a complete fool today. Yet again the same quote works: tomorrow is another day. I just gotta keep my head on straight!

I wasn’t extremely loud or out of control like I have been but I certainly didn’t accomplish what I set out to. Tomorrow’s another day. What I’m having trouble with is asking questions. I’m trying to keep my mind out of other people’s business. And I discovered something I found really cool but rather than quietly appreciating I had to go and tell EVERYONE about it. But atleast I wasn’t trying to be funny.
I know alot of people would look at me strange for saying what I just said. Oh well, it’s just how I think!

For whatever reason I keep getting louder and more outspoken. I wish I would cut it out!

The only thing stopping me from doing this is when friends and family think something is wrong. But there’s nothing wrong! I just want to not speak alot. I’d rather say few words than a lot of them. So I’m going to be quiet today and answer questions only when I’m asked. Only speak when spoken to. And when I do speak I will make it to the point. No funnies and no being long-winded. I don’t want to seem curt. But I think a smile can stop that impression. I also will not laugh alot. This tends to make me not want to stay silent. Instead a little chuckle or smile should be be how I react to something funny. I’ll be sure and report how it goes.

I’m really just trying to quiet myself. I’m so tired of small-talk, pointless conversations, etc… I’d rather be respectful and quiet. I was hardly in control of my words and self today at work constantly making jokes like always. I’m so sick of that!