stop feeling ugly

i feel like this is a childish problem of mine that nobody understands, especially my friends =|
the moment i try to tell them how i feel about myself
they immediately contradict me but since im so stubborn
i persist on it and they get really annoyed.
i really dont believe them when they compliment me
do i look bad and theyre just trying to cover it up?
do they pity me? is this feeling really that bad?
idnt get how they dnt understand this
its just ugh!!
wth is up wid ppl feeling like theyre pretty?!
im soo jealous! especially when theyre not n they think theyre the fuken hot shit ugh it makes me feel like trash
how come THEY who are UGLIER than me
inside and out can feel so good about themselves!?
i KNOW im a good friend
a good gf a good daughter a good sister a good cuzin
but i wish i was as pretty on the outside as i feel on the inside
if that makes sense.. watever i just really need to let my thoughts out
and since no one listened i looked for sumplace 2 talk abt it and found it.