be beautiful without makeup

I’m pretty sure it’s just not possible for me…
I just dont think I have an attractive face without it!!
Not that it’s “boring” or plain but because I honestly feel like I look sick without it!! like physically ill!! I’m so pale,I have porcelain skin, and it’s so uneven all the time! I have naturally blonde hair that washes me out even more…I dunno,I just dont feel attractive without it! a lot of people say I look good…sometimes better without it- but I just cant do it… Usually I say I’m just going to use a bit of foundation to cover the redness.. which usually turns into blush to give me a little colour/glow…which turns into mascara to make my eyes look awake/bigger… it just never stops at one thing!! baahh it’s frustrating because I hate the feel of makeup and what it does to my skin! Not to mention the amount of time it takes to do!!