be the best damn parent I can be (for myself)

I ‘ll Never be the same.
Stars have lost their meaning for me.

I ‘ll Never be the same.
Nothing is what it once used to be.

I ‘ll Never be the same.
There is such an ache in my heart.

I ‘ll Never be the same,
since we are apart.

There is such a lot that a smile can hide.
I know down deep inside I’ll never be the same.

My sweet mum passed away in July 2000. My dearest papa passed away in August 2007. They were the best parents someone could ever imagine. But they are gone. I am 24 & alone. My parents named me after the greek word for rock ‘petra’. Strength is in my name and I will take great care of the little girl inside of me and stand up for her, like my parents would do, although I am afraid sometimes.
Yesterday I wanted to call someone I was somehow afraid off. I wanted that person to return my money because she deceived me. I called. I was so afraid, but I was the boss. She was impressed and returned my money immediately. I am sure my parents would have been very proud with me. I miss them and I honour them.