create a life that is right for me now

today i’m ill, so its a good chance to think about some elementary things.
i cleaned my rooms and got rid of a lot of stuff i’ll not need any more.
in university i learned you just can manage 7 things a day, but i found out about myself i can handle just 4. so i started to do 4 things a day. one big and important task and 3 smaller things. that’s working very well.
every day i’m getting closer to the point that i have to be true to myself and i keep the faith that all my decisions this year have been right.
i’m disappointed of my friends and some days ago i took a final decision: i can’t make it right for everybody. i’m not going to be married as everybody else and i’m not feared of being left on the shelf. fear was one of the most obstructive things in my life and my surrounding is full of it. i’m the leader of my life and i started to do the things that are right for me now. i hope my friends will understand this. i’m going ahead now and i’m happy about everybody who can understand this and will join my pack.

every end is the beginning of something new

i banned my television

in the last weeks i used my html skills to reorganize my surfing habits. my bookmarks are working well, but they are too much and i spend too much time on the web. so i build 2 new websites: one for my business and one with the bookmarks which i have to open daily to stay connected to my network and those i’m interessted in. now these links open in new tabs and when i’m done i just close them. when i have visited all of them i close my browser and so i’m always up to date within 1 hour.

i love it!

Read my entry in be focused and determined and make things happen to understand how I fund out how my life has to look like.
Now, since I know it, I have to work frequently on my plans and new goals. Step by step.
I challenge myself because I don’t want to fall back into my retracted behaviors.

Today I have recognised, that this goal ist the summarization of a couple of my other goals:

stop smoking
make peace with my past and embrace my future
graduate from college
consume less caffeine
wake up earlier
make yoga a daily part of my life
learn how to remember peoples names
discover my passion
learn to fly
learn to sing
learn to play an instrument
make my family financially independent, buy a pastry shop for my mum and a sail boat for my dad
run a marathon
learn spanish

All these goals haven’t been something I thought, they are something I know and what I have deeply felt in myself all the time long since I started writing them down at 43 Things. It’s amazing how complex and astute the subconscious mind really is.

From time to time you have to turn over a new leaf. Time to pause briefly once again and to reflect. The circle is closed and something new can begin. Let it be of some property. Something which gives new strength to your life.