Change in 2012

during these past two weeks that I barely can believe this is my life. My home is sparklingly clean and clutter-free, I wake up before the alarm every morning at bloody 5.55, I am prepared, I know what I have to do, I do not stress, I am on time, I am productive, and I am reliable and even anticipate other people’s needs.

This is so unbelievable to me…

I’ve set a whooole long list of new routines for myself and have been aiming for a radical change this past week.
I believe in baby steps. But sometimes, you also need to just go cold turkey. That’s what I’m doing. Quitting the lifelong procrastination while I pretend to live in blissful ignorance of all that NEEDS my attention.

So I don’t regret taking the step.

But it s a bit overwhelming. And as my new system needs tweaking, and I try out new tools and new ways, I make mistakes. The time wasted in making those mistakes (like spending nearly 4 hours entering next week’s menu planning into a website I thought would be useful but turns out useless) generates stress. And stress spreads quickly into all areas.

Well, of course I’m overwhelmed. I have to actually face, for once, the immensity of all the open projects I have in my life. Not in a once-every-second-year-comprehensive-to-do-list, but in an actual structured manner that forces me to SEE what needs my attention every day. So of course I panic a bit. Realising that there are only 24 hours in one day, and I spend far too many of them sleeping… (“Up at 6am” says my new routine… earliest this week has be 8.45… with a lot of struggle)

But it’s good. Change is good. And I am grateful for all that it brings :) I just need to RE-LAX and keep doing it.

This week, I have discovered GTD (Getting Things Done) and ZTD, and I have spent nearly all of my brain space on thinking about how to implement them into my own life.

I have done huge progress today, and feel like a huge weight has been taken off my shoulders. These systems are amazing (to me), and seem like the simple answer I always have been looking for. The number 1 rule of GTD is not keeping anything up inside your head and getting everything down on paper (or wherever). And I can really feel the difference already!!! Well, I have this nagging feeling that I didn’t get it all out, but I know it will quickly come back to me.
But so far, it’s looking really promising, and I can feel like the few changes I have made already are changing my way of seeing things drastically. I have accomplished more in a few hours today than I do most days!!

I have a feeling this will be my key for a successful change in 2012 :)

Shortly before we entered 2012, I got this feeling that 2012 was going to be an awesome ear, filled with great changes for me.
I have since heard the same thing from many people. I have also, this past week, been hearing and reading a lot about how so many people felt the same way, but were also feeling like the first few weeks of 2012 had been very trying, and were a bit thrown off course by that. I can relate to that as well. January has been a bit trying so far.

And it suddenly just came to me! Monday is the Chinese new year. And we will ener the year of the dragon, one of the most powerful signs. And although I am not a specialist of Chinese astrology, I do know that the year of te dragon is usually considered a very powerful and changing one.

So that might be the key :) So many of us could feel the greatness approaching, yet we didn’t have the right date for when that would start ;-)

Note to self: celebrate on Monday!

Because I say so. I have spent nearly 35 years starting things. I intend to spend the next 35 years actually finishing things :)

This year will be filled with accomplishments, and the end of repeating “I will do x y z” and never doing it. In 2012, I WILL do everything I set my mind on. Yep.

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