See a psychologist

Therapy helped me a lot till now. I slowly start understanding myself. I feel I put all the small peaces of a puzzle together. I understand now what a central role my father has in my life and how much this harms me. I understand why I never let any men love me and why I leave them when they really care. I understand now why I don’t let myself be happy.. There are still many questions, at least it is getting better.

.. I don’t know if I should tell anyone that I am seeing a psychologist. My best friend knows, but no one else, not even my family. I just tell them the that I am going to see some friends, they must think that I have suddenly become very social.. My Dad would just say his usual cynical remarks and my Mom would be very worried and disappointed, because I could not solve my problems alone. I did not even tell the psychologist that no one knows I go there.

She always gives me some homework. Last time she asked me to write about 20 sentences about women. But I don’t understand exactly what should I write about: women in general, women in my family, me as a woman?