live my dreams instead of dreaming my life

I dream only of a simple life…. a normal life… I guess I’m doing it already… and being positive and smiling for the world, but the loneliness of doing all this alone is slowly eating into me…

I dream of spending my days basking in someones attention, my nights in caring arms. That special someone who shares all my highs and lows with a understanding and caring soul…. embraces my past and all my fears and doesn’t leave my hand midway….

How do I live this dream? All I can do is dream it… and hope that I don’t become more cynical about life than I already am…..

I had a chance to claim love….. I had a chance to grab something for myself….. maybe all my dreams would have been fulfilled through that one person….............
I just sat there advising him to do the right thing…... and made no claims….
No regrets…..

My soul screams out to me…. its calling out to me to find a new dream to live….... a more feasible, doable, livable sort of dream…..

My eyes find comfort in this saying… “Life’s not the breaths you take. But the moments that take your breath away”

I think of those amazing breath taking moments shared with true affection…. in its purest form….. the way they touched me and left me wanting to make dreams my reality…

I want to live my dream…. be with true love… every day, every night… for the rest of my life…............. but the choices I have made will never let me have that peace, that comfort…. god… what am I doing?

The funny thing about dreams is that if you see them too long and too consistently your mind starts tricking you…. you begin to confuse the dreams as reality and thats when frustration kicks in>................... oh boy, am i frustrated?

I didn’t dream this would happen to me….. I let my guard down for a bit and killed the rational voice in me…... and lived my dream instead of dreaming about it….........

So much peace…... so much of happiness….... so many memories….. shudder to think if I hadn’t reached out….. what a loss it would have been…..........

I would have missed living the best Summer of my life!!

For the first time in my life I think that I can dream… I am allowed to dream…

Now that I have a job… I just have to stick to my decision and move on. I have been dreaming of this for a while… but I always get tangled into doing the right thing. I don’t want to do the right thing – I just want to fly!