walk daily

I need motivation. I can only get my walking done if I get in the car and drive to the community center, climb the two stair cases and use the treadmills. Having anxiety about leaving my home stops me from doing so. I know it is irrational but, it stops me non the less. I feel that I’d be putting myself in the towns main display case for all to see and laugh at my awkward way of walking. Where does the fear come from? I’m not sure but I think it goes way back to a time that my Mom brought us kids to the circus and my sister pointed at a clown who was doing their short pants penguin walk, she laughed so hard then turned to me and said “That’s just like the way YOU walk.” I was devastated. I am shaky even writing about it now.