finish college

Classes officially start tomorrow for the 2nd summer session. Both of the classes I’m taking are online so I’ll be spending a lot of time in front of the computer when I’m not at work, which will kind of suck. I have to get it done though. I have to. Have to.

I paid off the bursar bill and signed up for classes. I may be getting in over my head, but I’m taking 6 credits over the summer and 7 credits in the fall. And 2 of those classes are law classes. Have I lost my mind??!

I’m taking a semester off. Not because I’m doing poorly. Actually, last semester I got an A+ is both of the classes I took. I owe the bursar $600, and they won’t let me register for spring classes until it’s paid off, so I won’t be taking classes this time around. I’ll start again in the fall. Sigh…

Well, I had decided to drop 2 of my 3 classes, but after some serious thought on the matter, I’ve decided to drop all 3. I’ll get a bunch of shit from some people, but the ones whose opinions matter the most (my parents and my sisters) know that it’s the best thing for me to do right now. I’d rather eat a semester’s worth of tuition than to struggle to improve my GPA after failing 3 classes. I can sign up for summer and fall classes in about 2 weeks, but I haven’t decided what I’m going to do yet.

Due to the fact that my bipolar is on the verge of getting out of control, I’ve decided to drop 2 of my 3 classes this semester. This will set me back, but I’d rather have to retake a couple of classes and be healthy, than to deal with a much worse alternative. So to eliminate some stress, these classes will have to wait. There’s always next semester.

Well, last semester wasn’t my greatest. In fact, it was by far the worst. I failed a class simply by not going to it. It was the most passive thing I’ve ever done. I’m only a week and a half into the new semester, and I’m already considering skipping class. This is going to be rough. I know I need to get it done, or resign myself to a life of servitude. Okay, so that’s a bit dramatic, but I seriously hate being a secretary. I’m going to have to suck it up.

I was pretty worried about the science thing but it seems to be working out. I got an A- on my midterm in the lecture, and an A on my midterm in the lab. I’m so glad I don’t have to take any more science after this. I would probably lose my mind.

A friend and I were talking yesterday about convincing the school to give me a degree without going to class. Sounded like a great plan, but after some consideration we decided it probably wouldn’t work out. Oh well. I guess I’ll just keep trudging along until the end result is actualized.

I had to take one more science class with a lab, and I chose Environmental Geology. It was really just the lesser of the evils I had to choose from, which included chemistry, physics, etc. This may be the first class I ever fail. I don’t like it, so I have a hard time remembering things, which in turn causes me to make bad grades. I have my first test today, and while looking over the study guide, I found myself saying “did we even learn that?” I don’t think that is a very good sign.

I tested into M111, which translates into Intermediate Algebra, also known as dumb math. (No offense to those taking M111). Here’s the thing though: I took this class in 9th grade! How depressing. After 2 days in the class I realized that I didn’t need to take this again, so I dialed the math department and got it switched to Finite Math. I’m not really looking forward to that one either, but it’s the only math class I have to take, so I might as well get it out of the way.

Also, I’m thinking of changing my major. I haven’t said anything yet, so I’ll tell you, my 43t family, as you’ve given me great advice in the past. Right now I’m an English major and I’m thinking of switching to Organizational Leadership (human resources). I just think it’s a better fit. I love English and grammar and literature, but I’m not sure if I want to turn my passion into something that I have to do, even if I don’t necessarily want to. It’s a conundrum.

Yesterday was the first day of classes again. I’m really not feeling it this time, but I know I have to do it. This semester is going to be especially rough as I’m not taking any classes that I’m interested in. It’s only 4 months though, and then I get to take different classes.

Back to the grind.