be a wife

Well, not alot I can do towards this goal alone lol – I kinda need his cooperation! If it never happens, it doesn’t. It’s not that I have any doubt in how he loves me and that we are forever, and I know it would not change anything for him or me actually, in how we feel, but in the REAL world, that lil piece of paper does indeed mean something, especially with kids involved. He has not ruled it out, but sometimes I feel a lil like I am not worthy yet or proven myself to him yet, and that feeling is not a positive one. So I don’t dwell but every so often it comes up, or with people laughing about how he married his ex TWICE even. But in the scope of real life, it doesn not matter a bit in “us” and I know it. If only I didn’t care about the rest of the world… or about insurance or other perks lol.