The fact is that I am being rejected over and over again, whether by a lover or a group of friends. I don’t know what it is about me that causes this, but I will inevitably get so far in creating bonds and friendships with people only to realise they are losing interest, never seeing me unless I initiate it, and just generally excluding me from social situations.
In the past, when such things happened, I would try harder to integrate myself, or look to make a new group of friends. I now see that this is futile and all attempts will have the same result.
I have to accept that people will reject me and stop letting this make me angry. Stop seeking acceptance, stop making integration, a lover, and a group of friends the goal, when you have realised this is unattainable.
