remember

xm..i remember that day..those moments spent together..that night..New Year night..hot bubble bath..room of candles light and full of vanilla smell..bottle of champange and we..i held you in my arms..and all i wanted that moment it’s just to make time stand still forever!..just to stay there forever!..there,with you..in silence..thanking God for giving me that happines i never had..for making me so happy near him..for his eyes full of flames when he look at me..for his sweet lips for me,when he kiss me..For that day when we first met..For those long evenings which made our feeling stronger day by day..For that i found one and only guy who loves me so much and more,like noone never loved me before..For that i found myself in him..found my world..my peace..my dreams and hopes..every little things i never had.. For that i found that place where i belong..where i can feel ease,calm and save beeing in his arms..For what i feel in my little heart..such a strong feeling..For that i can bravely say how much i love him,how much he means to me and expect the same from him..For feeling that he is my everything,and everything is he.. For that i made a right giving him all i have..all my heart..all my world..all me.. For giving me chance to care about him..chance to love him the best way that i can..for that i can show him happines,i can make him happy.i can show him true relationship..true me!..For that i can show him the world he never saw..show him,that life is worth to live…For that he cares about me..that he is near,next to me..For that i know,no matter what happens,he will always be there for me..holding me down..holding my hand through all troubles.. For that we can dream..together..and make our dreams come true..For that moments we share..For that we smile together..cry together..feel happy together..for every things we do to each other..just for us!.sun for us..rain for us..rainbow..everything about us!thanking for that we have now!..and it’s not all..i just cant find more words to expres who it’s important to me!..
beautiful??..i know it is..

but guess now it’s just a memory!..memory of the BEST,SWEETEST,PURE time in my life..something,that i will never forget!..everything we had..and what left i’ll save in the only best place of my heart..and i know noone ever will love me like he loved me..i know..noone ever will love him like KUKIA loves him..
and it’s amazing how one stupid mistake can ruin it all..i’ve learned a good lesson..for over my life!..
and now..i cant move on..how hard i tried..i just cant
it’s been 55days..at will take longer.. i just hope that one day..maybe when his days and nights get a little bit colder he’ll whisper : I’ve run from these feelings for so long
telling my heart I didn’t need you
pretending I was better off alone
but I know that it’s just a lie..
but guess it’s impossible..ou my…i cant breathe
maybe one day he’ll realize that i really regret of what i said..but..i just afraid it’ll be just too late;(( but guess i’am aksing for impossible things..im closing in my fears..i’m too small to handle it

James Blunt – Goodbye my lover*

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
‘Cause I saw the end before we’d begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what’s mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won’t stop there,
I am here for you if you’d only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I’ve kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I’ve been addicted to you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can’t break my spirit – it’s my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I’ve seen you cry, I’ve seen you smile.
I’ve watched you sleeping for a while.
I’d be the father of your child.
I’d spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We’ve had our doubts but now we’re fine,
And I love you, I swear that’s true.
I cannot live without you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I’m asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I’m kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
ou my..:( in every song,in every word i find something that reminds me about me,you,us.. there are something that i cant expres sayin it by myself.. its so hard..

I miss you terribly
My heart breaks a little more every time you leave
And only your touch can make it complete
I wish you was in my arms right now to cure this loneliness
Just take me away, into a bliss
Dreaming of your hand on my face
Your arms wrapped around my waist
Lingering and waiting for your kiss
Your lips and tongue dancing across mine
Feel the passion getting stronger
Please don’t leave, just stay a little longer..reminisce those moments*