feel sexy

Had a great performance, then drove to pick up Aaron and was singing ‘hot stuff’ really loudly because it was on the radio. Got out to wait and was singing a dancing, felt sexy and fun (was even wearing track pants and a t-shirt! lol). It’s a start…

I have seriously lost most of my confidence in myself so slowing thinking of ways to gain it back.
Just put up one of my nude photos that a friend took for her photography course a few years ago up as my desktop background. So I can see it when I’m on the computer and hopefully learn to except and like myself again. Can’t work out how this dislike happened…I accepted how my body was years ago and was happy with myself, but now it’s gone again.

That my boyfriend is a big part of why I don’t feel sexy, I know that’s crap and shallow because what someone else thinks about me shouldn’t change the way I think or feel about myself but it does. He even says that I’m pretty and stuff like that but actions speak louder then words and I just don’t feel at all like he does.
Also depressed at the moment because although I don’t think I’m attractive I feel he should think that because he’s in love with me (love is blind, etc.), but then also think that’s totally unfair on my part to want that of him. Hate it all and just feel like such shit :(

That I actually don’t feel sexy anymore. Never really thought about it before, obviously I never have felt sexy all the time but I do remember that at times I have felt sexy and that I don’t anymore. Need to fix this because it’s an empowering sort of feeling and I miss it. Not sure what’s changed with me whether it is a confidence thing because of my weight or something else but I’ll figure out what it is and fix it soon hopefully.