list 100 things I love about me

71. I am fantastic at conflict resolution.
72. I have great taste in music.
73. I have a loud, fun, engaging laugh.
74. I am excessively observant.
75. I get up on stage and dance and sing whenever I have the chance.

76. I can do sock laundry without losing mates.
77. My earlobes support dangly earrings, as well as studs, and look good either way.
78. I have several scars on my legs that make me look like a badass.
79. I can eat more Nutella in one sitting than anyone I’ve ever known, and I’m absolutely up for proving it. Again.
80. I genuinely like all of my tattoos, and do not regret them or their placements.

81. My wrists are dainty and pretty.
82. I always root for the underdog.
83. I give great hugs!
84. I am very much childlike in my directness and my outlook.
85. I am a good friend.

86. My ability to organize: people, events, stuff, whatever.
87. I am really comfortable speaking in public, and I do it well.
88. I have beautiful handwriting.
89. I appreciate things more than most people, little things, like the weight of fine stationery or the base notes of white chocolate in certain perfumes.
90. I love fiercely and without apology.

91. I am a very driven person, and I’m your typical “winner,” but not because I’m always the best 100% of the times, it’s because I really don’t know anything else but to try.
92. My eyebrows have a pretty shape.
93. I have a killer voice!
94. My awareness of my own emotions and the emotions of others is very useful and astute, and I think it might even make my relationships better!
95. I have good manners when they really count.

96. I have great hair. It looks great no matter what I do to it.
97. I have a really noticeable birthmark on my right cheek. I do not notice it anymore when I look in the mirror, but when people (namely small children or older people) ask me about it or are really rude regarding it, it makes me smile, because I love it.
98. I love my fingernails, and I love them painted red.
99. I love the fact that I am the sort of girl who loves to wear red nail polish, and this may seem like a cop-out, but think about it…
100. I am really, really gregarious, moreso than probably anyone I know, and I love that about myself.

In the past year, I have become this bizarre neurotic, insecure Doppleganger of my real self, and it is affecting my relationship and the way I interact with the world. As a general rule, I am confident and sort of live by the idea that I don’t care if most people come, stay, lay or pray. That’s why people (and especially my lover) are attracted to me, and I’ve lost this quality. I am determined to get it back. Russ is helping and doing his part, so this is part of my end. Wish me luck!