talk to more people about God

Ah! I’m telling you, God is using me. People are so drawn to me and everytime they come to me i minister to them. Some of them are so curious about God, others are so cold. I have to be extremely carefel, so i allow the holy spirit to guide me. Whenever i minister, i feel as if i have no control over the things i say.It flows. I’m able to tell strangers personal things about my life. I spoke to two people at different times in less than two hours. You see, the thing is, God shines through those that love him, desire him, are not cold or luke warm but HOT. His spirit shines through people who are on fire for God. The spirit of the broken are drawn to Christians. They don’t know this, but broken spirits who need God are drawn to the holy spirit and they can’t understand why their so drawn to me. Think of this,speaking in tongues. The flesh has absolutely no idea what the spirit is saying to God, but the holy spirit knows exactly what to pray for. It’s similar when broken spirits are drawn to the holy spirit, they have no idea why they HAVE to talk to me but their spirit craves the holy spirit. It’s amazing! People, i can’t help saying this over and over again. Reach out to God, he loves you. i’m just feeling a speck of God’s power and that makes me so high..I want more of him.

So, on thursday i saw this man (he’s around 40 years old)at University sitting by himself (he’s always by himself). God told me to get up and i literally ran to him because at that time i was getting my lunch and my spirit was so anxious to get to him. I said Lord, please don’t let him leave!. So when i got back he was there. I went up to him as if we were friends. I said, ‘hello, God told me to come and talk to you’. He told me a little about himself and i realized that he puts God last. He said to me ‘I believe in God but i’m not like you’. I asked him how he solves his problems and he replied ‘I mediditate’. There’s a reason why God told me to talk with him and obviously something is wrong. I started crying for him because he was so cold towards my Saviour. He said ’ Don’t be like Mary Magdaline crying for Jesus and using her hair to wipe his feet. I felt like this guy was mocking me. Usually when i tell people about God they listen and say ‘i really needed this’ or they burst into tears. Instead i cried for a lost soul who i was trying to lead to Jesus. God just showed me that it wouldn’t be easy to lead people to him. I felt helpless. It’s like you KNOW that they’re spiritually dead and God tells you to minister and tell people how much God loves them and it’s like you failed! It hurt me so much because at that moment when i was trying to help the man i had flashbacks of who i used to be and how God embraced me and here is this soul that isn’t aware of the love of Jesus. I cried, i cried, i cried in front of the stranger.
I love God so much and here i thought it was going to be easy to just share the Joy that God has given me. I just could not reach out to this man. I KNOW that all these lost and broken souls are spiritually dead and it hurts me so much that Jesus loves us so much that he suffered and died for our sins and they don’t know. You guys have no idea how amazing God is. I can’t put it into words. His name moves our spirit! Our God created us and loves us and still people still choose to be of this world, influenced by the devil. We Christians are lights to the world. We represent God. You know, broken people are drawn to me because they see the spirit of GOD shining through me!!!! Getting drunk or getting high is not the way to solve your problems. IT IS A COPY OF THE REAL THING. Getting drunk is only EMPTY BLISS. I’m telling you i’ve been there. I’m here to show people that i was once broken. I can relate. God embraced me and i fell to the ground in tears. People, we were designed to crave God. We were created to want to feel him. So when we drink and get high, it’s empty and it’s temporary. The next day you feel sick and messed up. OMG i can’t stress it hard enough. The Holy Spirit to me is like a drug. I get high worshipping God and it continues day after day after day. It never ends. God fills my spirit and lifts it up.It feels so GOOD that i’m even afraid to let a guy in because i don’t want him to come between me and my Jesus!!! Omg you have no idea how amazing God is. HE LOVES YOU, YES! HE LOVES YOU.`Trust in him, give him everything, make him your foundation. We are all sinners. I am a sinner and that’s why Jesus died for us to make us new again.
Pray to him and ask him to forgive you because you are a sinner. Ask him to open your eyes so that you can see!!! For some reason i’m ministering because i just know that there are people at their darkest who need someone to reach out to. I’m here to tell you that God loves you, reach out to him, just believe. You don’t have to take drugs. Just pray. As i said i was once there, so i know how hard it is. For me it didn’t happen over night. I went through trials and i’m happy i did because now i’m strong in the Lord!!!!! I LOVE YOU LORD! ahh! ^^

God Bless You and i’m still going to continue ministering.

P.S Send me a personal message if you need someone to talk to. I’m here

Remember..God loves you. I could go on and on.

So,I was at school and i was reading my bible and for some reason i kept on getting the urge to get up and talk to a stranger that walked by and sat down across from me. I got up and told her the entire story of my life that led me to the high place i am now with God. Her jaw literally dropped and she was amazed. At the end of all of that she said ’ I really needed to hear this.’ I felt so good. I want people to know how awesome God is and lead them to him!!!

““The greatest single cause of atheism in the world today is Christians: who acknowledge Jesus with their lips, walk out the door, and deny Him by their lifestyle. That is what an unbelieving world simply finds unbelievable.””
— Kevin Max

Well, i really think this is my purpose. I’ve been through so much from cutting, my goth phase,suicide attempts and the rest of the twisted thoughts that the devil put in my head. I was at the point where i just wanted to die and that one moment when i had the pills in my hand, God spoke to me and his love embraced me. I can never be the same person i was three years ago. I was delivered because i desired God. I wanted my life to change and the Lord drew me close to him. You know, the Lord told me that once you give Jesus full control of your life, in other words surrender to him, he marks you with his blood and there is no way that you can fall and not find your way back to God. I’ve strayed so many times and over and over again i realise that i’m not the same person i was, even if i tried to be! He’s yours and you are his. His word says that we are his sheep and if we get lost he will find us. I’ve witnessed God’s awesomeness so many times to the point that it’s unbelievable! Thank you Lord for making me yours.

I just think it’s my purpose to tell people about how God changed my life. There are so many people who need to be awaken and see that there’s a mighty God who loves them and needs them to give their life to their creator and to stop living in sin.

I’ve been there, living the life of empty bliss that is part of the lifestyle of the lost and the broken. God fills our soul and brings it to life. He gives us joy, peace and serenity. He lifts us up at our weakest and darkest hour. All you need to do is reach out to him and ask him to bring your soul to life, make you new again, come into your heart and forgive you of your sins and i’m telling you your life will be filled with God’s love. You’ll never be the same again. Take it from a girl who cut herself, attempted suicide and went through severe depression. My own psychiatrist thought i was fit for a mental institution. Remember though God created us to be of a sound mind and i thank God for being in my life because i truly and only live for and because of him. Thank you Jesus.

Anyhoo my goal is to tell more people about God because i think it’s my purpose but for some reason i had to write this long thing because there is someone out there reading this who God is trying to reach out to.

Ps. and yes, he loves you that much that he uses people to reach out to you. Now you reach out to him and let him fix you. I’m telling you he will change your life.