forgive

I forgot to check this goal because I was able to forgive my close friend for what he did. But just when I thought I could just forgive and forget, me and my dad are at it. Ever since he called the cops on me, I haven’t talked to him. I know he’s my father, but that was the end of the line. I’m glad I live on my own, but when I visit my mom and brothers, it’s just awkward. Honestly I can keep hold on this grudge for a long time. I don’t know what to do.

I had forgiven my father many times for what he has done to my mother, but not this time. Ever since i was young i was never able to do anything when my parents fought. His insecurities is breaking our family apart. He always assume that my mother is cheating on him since he works late at night, but i know for a FACT that she will never cheat on him. Its been over 20 years since they’ve been together with three kids and you would think he should be able to trust her by now. His drinking is what makes things worse. He drinks everytime hes at time and yell at my mom when she comes back from work.

Now that i’m older im able to stand up for my mother. Friday i got into an arguement with him. I really piss and came so close to hitting him. He tried calling the police on me, but they didn’t come. I know my mom and my lil bros cant take it any more, so we all moved in at my grandparents. We packed everything we can and left. He took my mom’s car away since it was under his name, but i took all my money out to get her a new car for work. Now its hard to find our own place right now since we cant stay with my grandparents forver.

Right now its so stressing, that i feel out of energy everyday. Im not able to think straight. My dad has been calling us to come back, but i told him that we’re not comming back this time. My lil brother isnt even able to cry about it anymore. As much as it hurts me to leave him and have him live on his own, we cant go through this anymore… Im sorry.

I got a call from one of my old friends, they were having a lil get together with all my other friends that i wasnt able to forgive for something they have done. But i know that i wasnt able to and shouldnt hold on to this grudge for the rest of my life.. I end up going and met everyone. It was very unexpected that they were all happy to see me again and for a moment there, it felt like i was back in high school. The good ol days where the whole group got along..

But it was a step for me to be able to go and see everyone again. It feels great to forgive em and be able to hang out with em. Time to make up for lost time…

I’ve always been the one to hold a grudge. Forgiving someone is hard for me to do. I can eventually forgive, but im not able to forget. I lost many friends, broke many hearts, and had my turn of it as well. I’m still not able to forgive my ex-girlfriend and i know i wont be able to get over her until i do. And my group of friends from high school, im still not able to forgive them for what they have done. It’s like you want to forgive them, but somethings holding you back from doing so… I have to work on this.