grow up

goal, but in a month I have had to do some serious growing up. I moved out of my parents house after a massive fight and now I am coming to terms with not having a relationship with them. I have moved in with my sister until I become a bit more stable emotionally and this gives me time to sort stuff out and also save up for a place.

at home with my family, I feel like I am growing up. I feel ashamed to say that I was a bit of a brat before. I guess sometimes you need to step back and look at a situation from other peoples perspectives. I am getting on a bit better with my parents now, why? Just because I am making more effort. I live in their house so I should make more of an effort. I only used to do the bare minimum before but now I am doing more around the house, contributing as much as I can financially and just sitting down with them and asking how they are. Its the little tiny things that make a difference.

days ago and I did not get anything from my parents, I have a troublesome relationship with them and I thought that they would have made an effort on my birthday. I was very ill and spent the whole day indoors. I realise now that I am not a child any more and my parents are certainly not treating me like one, all in all it was a crap birthday and I will not remember this in the years to come but I know now that I need to make things happen for myself because I am the only one who can. Its a tough world so I cannot afford to screw around, I need to get into a good job and finish studying before thinking about long term goals. I am unhappy with myself so until I fix that I cannot make progress in other areas of my life. As for the parent situation? Well I am civil to them and I just try my hardest to not get worked up about their criticism and constant comparisons of me to other people. I am not perfect and they will never ever be happy with me the way I am and I just need to make sure that I am happy with myself.

alone at the moment and although this is temporary its quite a shock. I have my place to myself and I am doing a lot of household chores as well as sorting things out for my family. I went grocery shopping yesterday and it was hard!! I have done this before obviously but trying to stick to a budget and planning meals before hand was just such a change for me. I am sick of take out so I started doing some nice home cooking. I am learning exactly how much my parents and family do for me and I appreciate them so much more.

and all the people I went to school and college with have already finished studying. I took 2 years out to work so I guess I feel like I have not achieved as much as them, sure I made money while I was working but a degree would have meant more to my family. They continue to tell me that I have nothing to show and I guess they are right. Being told this by them makes me feel like I am about 9 years old. Another thing is that they are pretty controlling, I messed up a exam I took and all they want to see me do is studying. Sometimes its cool to get a push from your parents but I swear I feel as if every waking moment is spent studying. Its crazy, I wish I worked harder for my last exam and I know that I cannot turn back time now but God I just know my life would have been slightly better.

I crashed my car about 2 months ago and since then my parents have been overprotective about me driving, It just makes it so damn difficult for me to progress as a driver and get my confidence back. I actually get a bit uneasy when driving on new routes now. That never used to happen before.

I live at home and have been doing since College finished, I work part time and my parents seem hell bent that I should save up. Fair enough, that is a good habit but seriously I just want to relax a bit and not have to worry about being short of money.

I’m Asian so yes they do have a lot of say in my life and they tell me that it is all for my own benefit but damn I feel like I am not growing up at all! I have explained that I will ask for their advice If I need it but they still seem to interfere.