meet my birth mother

I have found out where my mother lives.. but I decided to everything properly as I don’t want to turn up on her doorstep and give her the shock of her life. So yesterday I contacted the social worker and she says I have to write a written application then they will check my files and take it from there. So I need to get cracking with the letter..

I have been adopted from birth and I love my mum and dad very much, but theres still that wonder. I am lucky to know who my birth mother is and we send eachother photos and cards through the adoption agency. I also have a little half brother who must be alsmost 14 now who I have never met. I would love to meet them both. I am now 20 and I feel ready but its so hard because of all the other things going off in my life. I did have a hard time when i was 15-16 and applyed to meet her but it was denyed. I undestand why now, as I thought I was ready then and I really wasnt. My parents are fine about me meeting her.. or was until it came nearer and nearer to me becoming 18. I’m 20 now and still havent done anything about it, my dad is totally fine about it and I can say- so is my mum but she seems worried no matter how much I reassure her. My birth father died not long after I was born but I think my mum thinks my birth mother may take her place.. which is not true. I have to say my mum is a drama queen though lol.. so she alway take things further than they have to be! I understand what shes saying though. But my mum who adopted me left and went to live in Scotland when I was 8 or 9 and it was really hard. It’s hard for a child to deal with. And of course I did think about my birth mother a lot after that. As my birth mother had only give me up so that I could be in a normal family environment with two parents. The adoption society.. (over 10 years on) have still not told her that my parents split up.

I think I may have to continue this story someother time..!