overcome my fear of death

Autobiography of a Yogi, and upon learning the yogic concepts of death, i feel at least a little bit more encouraged about this whole life/death…thing…

that book was phenomenal and has made me rethink my life a lot…i don’t know if i’d go as far as joining the SRF, but i think self awareness is definitely something i want to work towards…i’ve come to notice several things about my personality that are counterproductive to what i want to do with my life (pride, greed, fear, etc.), and i feel some of the methods they describe in that book are really compelling

my heart goes out to my housemate and her family…over the past 2 days, our muffin has lost her cousin (23 years old) and her great-uncle to illness…

i and dozens of others had been praying for days for her cousin to recover (i wasn’t aware her uncle had been ill) and it’s so sad to hear that she left this earth at such a young age

and yet, while death is shrouded in mystery and lends itself to fear, i feel like the two of them leaving this plane at nearly the same time is no accident…that they will lead each other into the next plane, together…and this brings an overwhelming sense of peace to the whole thing

in the end, i believe there isn’t as much to fear from death as i always assume…it’s harder on the people here, to lose people that are so loved…but we all meet up again in the end…”nothing lasts, but nothing is lost”

after this weekend, and feeling spirits as old as time itself still wandering around this strange orb, i feel slightly more reassured that in the end, nothing actually dies…not entirely. energy is energy, and it doesn’t disappear with death…it just changes shape and color.

also, after one of the biggest synchronicities i’ve ever had in my life, (trashtalking a girl who has been extremely selfish with me and other friends of mine and then having her official “themesong” start playing on my computer immediately after…hard to appreciate unless you knew her) i’m utterly convinced that there are invisible forces that both listen and watch what goes on here…kind of spooky, but intruiging as all get out.

what do we know less about than death?

and what is fear but the inability to understand something unknown?

every religious text i’ve ever read has suggested there is more to life than just life…that there is consciousness after death, and that death is just a further rebirth. my hope is to concentrate more on the positive connotations of death than the negative…this will be quite a task