have confidence in myself

I just really want to have more confidence in myself. I’m always, always, always self-conscious and there’s never been a day when I haven’t been this way as far as I know. I want to be able to go to the school and not worry about people judging me, or thinking things about me, or looking at me weird. I just want to be comfortable with myself and not worry about what everyone else thinks and wants me to be. I want to be able to act like myself and not put on a show for everyone just so that I don’t come off as a freak. I want to not care. I just want to be able to be me.