quit drinking

And with the holidays it seems to be a real challenge! I have learned that I need to keep myself super busy with new things so have a pretty full weekend planned that revolves around a lot of non-drinking activities. I want to get through this weekend so I am not tempted. It seems like the first week is the hardest, but since I have never made it past that first week, how do I know? :-) I am going to this time!

Today is the start of my second week here. I just wanted to send a note of thanks to everyone for your stories, your comments and your support. I don’t feel alone now and for the first time in my life I am honest about my drinking. It feels good to be able to do that!

So I am not letting my Saturday slip up get me down. I really feel good today and determined to have a great night without any wine. Reading everyone’s posts and getting so much support really helps me in doing this. I am also pleased with my resolve this time. Usually if I slipped up I would just figure what that hell and keep on drinking. This time I am looking at it for what it is. A mistake that was just that day. It doesn’t mean I am back to my old ways. This is going to take time and practice. I am up for the challenge.

Well, I almost made it through yesterday until the egg nog came out with the brandy and I said, “Okay, just one.” I have done my share of kicking myself, today, but feel tonight that I just need to get back on the pony and stay positive. All the support here really helps and my friends are in the loop now, so that should help.

Here’s to a great week!

Today is truly a great day! I haven’t had a drink in 3 days and today I woke up fresh and happy. We are getting our Christmas tree today and it will be the first time in many years that I won’t decorate it drunk. I love this time of year and this year I am actually going to get to enjoy it.

Have a great weekend!

I am so happy this morning because I made it through Thursday which is always a challenging day for me. I really feel good about myself this morning. Not being hung over and having a clear head is a treat, but more than that, I don’t feel guilty this morning. I could actually walk to the bus without repeating over and over in my head, “Why did I drink last night? I have to stop.”

It wasn’t all easy. I really wanted some wine for about the first 30 minutes of getting home, but I just ate my dinner and watched TV and it passed. Later that evening I didn’t even really think about it, which is new.

One thing that is really keeping me going is reading all the comments here and getting all the positive feedback. It really makes a difference and I feel that this time I can do it.

It feel so blessed to have found this site. I was actually pretty excited to check it out this morning and I feel like I have finally found a place to share my experience and learn from others. Yesterday was not that hard but Thursdays are my challenge day. So, what I am doing is shaking up my routine and keeping it in my head that I feel really, really good today. If I can get through tonight that will be a huge step for me.

I totally forgot about this site, but came across this group while once again searching the web for anything that will help me stop drinking. I have been wanting to quit for about a year but never go more than a day or two. I drink at least a bottle of wine a night when I am alone. That’s a lot. I feel so great the day after an alcohol free night, but go right back to it. I tried AA, kind of, I just don’t like going to meetings.

I think I am kind of rambling, but it feels good to just get this out. I want to be sober and feel good about myself again. I am tired of always feeling guilty.