control my drinking

That is one tough question. On one hand, just quitting totally would be the smartest thing and maybe even easier since it wouldn’t be a choice. But, then there are the times when you are out to dinner or something and would like to have a glass of wine. Last night was one of those for me. We have this great redesigned independent theater complex here that has a restaurant and a lounge. We got there super early and had a cheese platter and some wine. That was really nice. So, time like that I want to be able to drink. It’s the times at home when the day has been super touch and that bottle of wine is begging to be emptied. I wish I could post on the “Stop Drinking” board on Monday, Wednesday and Thursday (my alone nights) and not feel guilty on Sunday when I know I will have a mimosa at brunch.

So I have been on the quit drinking and stop drinking goals here, and I am not sure if they are right for me. I am glad I did them, but like Crayon Stains, I really want to control it more than just not drink ever. Am I kidding myself? Maybe. They only way to know is to try. I have actually been controlling it, but that could be that I felt guilty for not quitting completely. So this is my goal, I will try this for one month. If I start drinking a bottle a night again, then I will realize that I can’t control it.