be happy, not on the surface happy, but deep down for serious happy.

I have everything… love, work, i have good marks at school, few best friends, a lot of plans a dreams….....but Im not happy…..I am just not, whats worng with me?

I found it out today. I remember that I was really deep deep inside happy. I didnt have any problems, any pesimistic thoughts….in other words I WAS happy. I really was. And I already know there is ONLY ONE place and ONLY ONE person who can give me this feeling of happines. If I only could be there and with this person more often than would would be more colorful….but this is life, here anything isnt easy.

For me being really happy is something what i would like to achieve as a main aim. But i don’t really know if being really happy is possible. Friends, family, school, work….this everything consist on our life. I would say that our life is how we want….but it’s not truth. It’s not like we create our own happiness. It’s mine, pesimistic point…