Stop drinking so much

drinking vodka EVERYNIGHT for about a year now, it’s crazy. not even that i just turned 20 been drinking since 16 but just reacently it’s been a year straight, thinking i’m on the road to waking up to shakes and puking in the morning cause i don’t have booze in my system, in fact this morning was the first that that happened. idk how to stop or slow down. it makes me feel happy…er? well when i am drinking it’s usually to get away from how misrable i am, so yes i think it’s a deeper problem but for now the vodka cures whatever is going on in my head. i hate where i am in life and i think thats why i drink so much, but yet i wanted to see if it was the drinking that was making my situation worse, but i don’t know how to put it on pause so i could see just for a month even if thats possible to see if that was the case, even as i write this now i’m backspacing so much just to make sure i make every word right. drunk as hell. yet another night i pass out instead of falling asleap. how the hell am i sapose to get out of this habit?
i just want to be happy with my life. and at the moment this seems the only way out, even for just a few hours…..........