In Portland it was easy to remember what I was working so hard for; I easily welcomed change, unleashed my adventurous, warrior self on a regular basis and never made any apologies for living the life I led.
In BHC, I need to remember that I chose this change; for myself and for my family. After being away from my family so long, it was easy to idealize them in my head and forget who they really are. They aren’t bad people but they are excuse-makers. Being around them again will either make or break the progress I’ve made since being away from them and I believe I am strong enough to maintain my ideals without offending or belittling them.
I am choosing to stay here, at least for the time being, to enjoy the company of my parents (even if my tongue bleeds from biting it!), to be a good influence for my sister by actions instead of words and to hopefully find my ever elusive creative-self. I will make the most of this change. I will surprise myself with my strength and when the time comes to head back to Portland, I will leave knowing that my time here has been spent wisely.
I don’t believe in fate or big mysterious plans that will work everything out but I do believe in myself and my ability to always rise to the challenge. I believe that every situation is an opportunity to grow and I look forward to seeing what I take away from this one!!
“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson
