decide what the hell I would like to do with the rest of my life

I pretty much like my life because of my family and my friends, they truly are blessings but I don’t know where I’m heading. It’s like I have no control on my life, not on any detail of it. No matter how hard I try, things turn out the way they ‘should’ be and the way ‘I want them’ to be. I’m a CSE student (junior year), but I’m a sucky coder and nothing about this major attracts me. All my life I wanted to create something and earn my life with what I create but I’ve never had the courage to pursue my dreams. Now that I don’t have time to get better at what I do love (music, recording, graphics), because I have midterms, projects, HWs and etc., I feel like I keep becoming the person who is light years away from who I thought I’d ever be when I was a kid with big hopes and big dreams.