Not care what other people think

I know this may sound silly, but I have always wanted dreadlocks – but I worried what my family would say – so I didn’t. Now I am far away in Denver and I did it – they said what they said but I LOVE MY LOCKS :) So happy I got them.

I still care what people think and this is a work in progress. One step at a time, right?

I just added – stop losing my temper to my list.. and really this goal also goes hand in hand. It seems that I am constantly justifying my choices in life to others – my choice to be a tarot reader to my baptist family, my choice to homeschool – well… to just about everyone… and proving myself to people around me who really don’t even mean anything to me personally. This constant walking on eggshells in my life, leads me to feel anxious and guilty quite often – which then in turn lead me to be angry. So I have to learn to understand that these things are all completely interconnected…

I have recently taken to hiding as my defense, and only leave my house every few weeks. Mainly this is due to my work schedule… but a large part of me is beginning to like it. I don’t know if that is progress or not…

I don’t know how to do this. I don’t mean to care… I just do… and sometimes I tink it’s not the healthiest… I mean.. who really cars what your coworkers neighbor’s cousin’s daughter thinks??? (me… sometimes… ) Blah!