be content with myself as I am

I am slowly coming along with this goal, it’s a long road but looking at myself as I was this time last year I can see a difference, it’s small, but a difference nonetheless.

I had terrible social anxiety disorder growing up, and though I’ve managed to overcome it for the most part I do still suffer from it from time to time (though now I am able to push myself past the anxiety to get things done). I think this contributed a lot to my poor self image, which is getting better as I slowly recover from that.

An issue I have (which I know stems from my SID) is that I worry too much about what people think. I am so incredibly critical of myself that I assume others are as well.

Over time I find myself worrying less and less about what others think of me, and though I am still critical of myself in certain aspects I find myself able to be more comfortable in many situations because I’m not constantly watching that I don’t do or say something stupid. I can laugh at myself a lot easier now.

I have come to the conclusion that I really do not like myself.

I was sitting in a guided loving-kindness meditation and when instructed to think of something good that I have done everything that came to mind I found myself analyzing and finding fault with.

I see the same qualities that I posess in others and admire them, but in myself I find them lacking.

I am too critical of myself.