marry the man of my dreams

Well, I’ve managed to kind of fall in love again. Not a deep love or anything, but a horribly painful infatuation. My only problem was, as I was creating my list of things I wanted in a partner, it hadn’t crossed my mind that I was creating a man who was totally out of my league :s. So I get to sit here and just sulk in my terrible crush.

Still haven’t found anyone remotely interesting to me. Feeling pretty lonely but attempting to persevere, I mean it’s not like I have all that much of a choice. I can’t really date someone I don’t feel any attraction to. So the single life is the life I’m doomed to for now :(

So I believe I’m on my way to this goal. I’ve always been a person who will date just because and modify myself to appeal to the guy I want. I’ve always known this was a problem but didn’t know how to fix it. I guess I just needed to be ready cause I just woke up one day and poof! there I was! So now I’m no longer actively looking for a partner, I’m just doing what I love doing and have complete confidence that soon enough my perfect partner will find me and won’t just stop loving me cause I will have been the real me the whole time :D

So I guess I should probably make it a little clearer in my mind what I want.

The man of my dreams loves me for everything I am. He loves my enthusiasm with small things, he thinks I’m absolutely amazing and is grateful everyday that he found me. We both feel this way for each other. He is an amazing man who is captain of the hockey team, plays in a band as a hobby, also plays an orchestra instrument, he has a great, stable, high income job and loves to spoil me and take me out. He wants a large family and possibly a farm. He loves the fact that I plan out healthy lunches for him, he LOVES my cooking, he also enjoys cooking and we are quite a team in the kitchen. He loves the fact I enjoy doing our laundry, he enjoys grocery shoping with me, he loves animals and is fascinated with Miischa and insects in general. He is my hero cause he takes care of spiders by releasing them outside when they scare me to the point of immobilization. He loves going out clubbing every once and a while including having a few drinks and dancing the night away with me. He is a fantastic dancer and we spend a few songs grinding on the dance floor. He catches lots of girls’ eyes but is completely in love with me. He is open to trying new things, including 3 sums and polysexual relations because we are secure enough in our relationship and we love each other so much. In our eyes, the only one that could ever matter is each other. Having children together is the greatest gift we could ever give to one another but our love is still stronger for each other. Having children doesn’t affect our love. He finds me just as sexy when pregnant cause it’s an intimate/affectionate time, cause I’m carying his child. He is emotional but strong and can stand up and easily handle my condition and spuratic moods. He buys me flowers, gives me simple kisses, passionate kisses, loves having sex with me, we do all kinds of things, have an active and very healthy sex life. He loves the outdoors and nature, and we go jogging, hiking, biking, rollerblading all the time. He LOVES camping and fishing and hunting. He is aware of health issues and shares my opinion on food consumption. He loves debating issues with me. We have lots of long conversations in politics, religion, history… ect.. Everything. He likes physics, and knows alot about it and alot about mathematics. He can help me become a physicist. Help me with my homework and encourages me in my goals. With him I feel so much more confident, I feel I can reach my goal and he does. He helps me get to what I want.

I love him so much, no two people were meant to be together more than he and I. It’s amazing that we will find each other out of everyone on the planet :D:D

Well I guess the first step would be to find a man. Being single sucks, but I don’t want to settle for what ever guys/girls come my way. So I have to be patient; and that’s one thing I’ve never had. I think this may very well be the greatest challenge of my life. To learn patience and to find true love. A love that will last with my perfect partner. And just so that I’m being specific, cause we all know God has a sense of humour and you need to specify, for the man to be in love with me aswell and want to work for things to be great between he and I.

That’s my goal. I hope one day I’ll be able to click on that little box on the top right corner “I’ve done this”