stop treating socializing like a drug

I love being by myself. I love reading, writing, creating, and thinking. But when I get around people socially, I get on a crazy high that I can’t get enough of. I don’t want the night to end, the phone call to be over, and depending on the level of intoxication it may take me days to refocus on my more serious persuits. This is insanity! I had to move to a place where I would have no friends to get serious about school. I need to find the balance between respecting introspective me and extrovert me. I love both Me’s, want to be the best of both Me’s, but I need to find away to cohabitat within myself.