be comfortable in my own skin

Why everytime you make progress in your growth some Hater has to come along and try to crush you? I did say try. Before underhanded comments, looks and I told you so’s would stick to my skin and totally ruin my day. But now I’m learning to let it roll of of my back. Screw them who do they think that they are? ” You getting thinck around the middle? you’re to young for that?...” “Are you still running, you need to amp it up?” Listen people out there with the comments, I don’t need your approval, or validation. Seriously who do these people think they are? God? No, I don;t think so, only he can judge me…

“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud
was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. ”
Anaïs Nin

I love this quote. It reminds me that the risk of waiting for something grand to happen to you is not worth the wait. I need to take life by the horns, and take charge of ME. And it is painful isn’t it? To remain in that tight bud. You really do feel restricted, like you can’t breathe, like you can’t be yourself. I’m almost there. I feel it. I hold my head higher, and I realized and appreciate the real friends in my life, and my beautiful family.

What is it to really feel comfortable with yourself? I know bottom line accepting who you are, and what you are. I think that I am actually doing that for the first time in my life. Who would’ve known? I’v been growing my dreads now, for 5 months, they’ve begun to lock and I feel good about them. I’m starting to accept my body shape, and other things in my life. Comfortable?....almost there.

Who made her Queen?
It was the Gods,
Who made her seen?
and got her nods.
Who saw her hair
braids down soft skin
liquorish, chocolate, honey wear
all that she’s in.
and who are lucky to be told,,
“Soul Brother that’s your queen, behold.”