be perfect

I visited this site again after a few months of being superbusy. Everything is still going as planned, more or less. I’ve recently stopped biting my nails again for the umpteenth time. And I’ve been losing weight too! Only 2.5 more kilo’s and I am no longer overweight. Yay!
Also, my schoolwork has improved majorly. If I can keep this up I hope I’ll pass everything from the first try next exams. That would be utter bliss for me, considering where I came from.

I know this goal is associated with anorexia and suicide. I think that’s too bad. Being perfect is also being healthy and being happy, and I do not believe suicide and anorexia fit in this picture. I’m sorry if I offend anyone. Please understand that to me perfection just means pushing myself to be what I want to be – to be all I can be. I don’t want to be superthin, just healthy. I don’t want to be the star pupil of my class, I just want to pass all my subjects. I guess perfection lies in moderation for me. And in beauty.

For everyone who is afraid, or thinking of giving up, you can do this! Together we are stronger!!

I have mapped out the goals that will make me perfect, in my own eyes that is. I know that being perfect is a very subjective thing. I might reach all my goals only to find that some people think I’m an utter b*tch, but I think it’s at least worth trying.

This link (http://moondroplet.livejournal.com/) is for my livejournal. Please feel free to visit and comment. It will hold all steps I take to become the perfect woman. I would love any support I can get, but I’m worried if my friends or family see this they’ll make fun of me. Or worse – try to convince me I don’t need it.

Thank you for reading this. I hope you find the things you need in your life, whoever you are. I hope you find the resolution to carry out your wish, like I have.