become a writer

It really is. It’s amazing how far this is really going. It’s like I know my characters by now, and I know what they want to become. I realize I don’t have to write everyday, but a good 30,000 pages+ start isn’t bad either when you want to possibly send out publishers your work. I already know how I want it to end. It all fits. I’m just excited at how cool it really is, and feels to be a true writer.

:D

I’m so…tired of thinking about this. It makes me feel like I’m not living up to my work. I’m such a good writer – everyone tells me so. But I haven’t wrote much lately, and when I do, it’s only a chapter. My habit is when I write, I end up starting over on a completely different story. I can’t come up with a good plot.

My idea is that I should “warm-up write” before I do anything like writing a chapter or starting a new idea. I could write about anything for 5-10 minutes and just write words that are similar in meaning or just randomize it all up. I need to clear my mind when I write, because when I do, I end up worrying about other things that I need to do…and then I stop.

Most of my ideas are already taken by other authors, and my stories aren’t that long. Sometimes it’s hard to write over 28 pages on Word Processor, and my font is usually 11 or 12 point font. I sometimes change up my font – I get tired of Times New Roman.

But yeah, I’m gonna try to work on this goal. I need to write more, and I want to start working towards getting published – that Writer’s Market book I have is getting dust on it, I bet… =(

I recently finished a story that I wrote. I finished it in a couple of months, but I’m afraid to send it to a publisher… I’m going to eventually. It’s about 28 pages on Word Processor, I just hope that’s long in a book… Probably not. I’m currently working on another one, but … It’s a work in progress. It’ll take a while to become finished.

I’m the type of writer who gets jealous when someone says someone writes better than me. I love seeing other writers, but when people say things like, “You’re such a great writer,” to the other person, well, it gives me motivation to write better than them. I don’t know why I do this, and it’s stupid. I guess I’m just dedicated about being a writer that I wish I could be best at all in my own eyes.

I’m going to be one, someday. I know it. I want it more than anything.